Went for some dance auditions recently. didn't expect myself to do so badly.. :( oh well ~ I can only blame myself for not practicing hard enough.. I’ve no either why the hell did I choose to do Beast "Shock" instead of SHINee "Lucifer".. just because I love them too much? Wanted to do their song so badly? Ah~ I think I’m too brave to choose a song that I didn’t really take down the steps. 

 

I wasn’t feeling any nervous before that. But the moment I step into the studio, I got a shocked and I mumbled “omg, why so many people” to myself. Its like so many pairs of eyes looking at you. Be it the front, the side or the back… the feeling is just so scary!  Even before the music started, I took the first move.. only to catch up the beat somewhere in the middle.. I didn’t do a full out. All I know is I was too fast, and I kept looking at the floor. i'm doing the wrong moves. i'm not enjoying. instead i felt like i was in a scary place.. I didn’t even dare to take a look at those pairs of eyes. I wanted to restart the whole thing, but I dare not say. Just because I’m finishing the 1 minute dance. I let it go~

 

I couldn't just do things for fun. Especially for dance. I wanted to do nice and look great, but I failed.